July 4, 2026

 July 4, 2026

Fireworks are stupid and I do not look forward to hearing them all night tonight. Along with the music and partying. I hate it and I do not want to hear it. I do not remember the last three 4th of Julys in this neighborhood, so I’m not sure it will be horrible, but with the fact that my neighbors love to blast music and be obnoxiously loud during other holidays and or regular weekends, I’m assuming tonight will be terrible. My dad is drinking today, but it does not bother me because it’s the 4th of July and I guess that’s his only way to celebrate being that he has only a few friends and none of which have asked him over.

 I told him I was going to bed an hour or so ago, I feel bad for lying, I mean I’m going to sleep soon, but I could have spent a little more time with him. I asked him for $60 because I wanted a doll, I feel bad for this. He let me buy the doll and I feel very guilty. I always feel guilty after asking him to buy me things. I wish I had a job so I could buy my own things. The passed two mornings I’ve eaten at 6am. Yesterday I ate at 6am and again at 8pm. Today I’m thinking of doing the same. Although I ate a lot this morning, so I’ll have to eat less tonight. I need to eat chicken nuggets, I may try to make those work tonight. 

Yesterday morning I called my friend as we usually do when he gets off of work, but this time it was 9am instead of 4am, he’s gotten a new schedule. We called for an hour, we usually only call for fifteen to twenty minutes, but yesterday he stayed on the phone with me while hanging out with his brother, he’s never really done this before other than his brother being present while we’re playing games on call. But yesterday he let me talk to his brother. All we said was hi (technically I said meow, I have a bad habit of that) but it felt nice that he let me talk to him. I think he’s becoming less shy about talking to me, It makes me feel nice.

I think I’m going to sleep now. 

Good night.

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