dollieindistress

 July 5, 2026 I need to fix my sleep schedule. I’ve already talked it over with my friend (because we call and talk so often and I do not want that to change) and we’ve found ways for it to work. I’d be asleep while he’s at work and we’d call before he goes and after he gets off. We barely text when he’s at work so I don’t think it will bother me that badly. My current sleep schedule has made me feel really bad the past few weeks. I believe it has effected my eating habits. I’ve been a lot more hungry lately. I’ve also been forgetting everything and feeling mentally drained almost everyday.  I’ve also been very moody and easily annoyed. I’ve been watching the same two shows on repeat because everything else irritates me.  I plan on going to bed around 10pm tonight, I took a four hour nap today, so I’d probably be waking up around 2am, if my friend doesn’t wake me up before then. We have plans to game tonight. I’m excited. I told him to wake me up when he’s ready. I like w...

 July 4, 2026 Fireworks are stupid and I do not look forward to hearing them all night tonight. Along with the music and partying. I hate it and I do not want to hear it. I do not remember the last three 4th of Julys in this neighborhood, so I’m not sure it will be horrible, but with the fact that my neighbors love to blast music and be obnoxiously loud during other holidays and or regular weekends, I’m assuming tonight will be terrible. My dad is drinking today, but it does not bother me because it’s the 4th of July and I guess that’s his only way to celebrate being that he has only a few friends and none of which have asked him over.  I told him I was going to bed an hour or so ago, I feel bad for lying, I mean I’m going to sleep soon, but I could have spent a little more time with him. I asked him for $60 because I wanted a doll, I feel bad for this. He let me buy the doll and I feel very guilty. I always feel guilty after asking him to buy me things. I wish I had a job so ...

 July 3, 2026 I played Build A Zoo for 12 hours.  Good night. 

 July 1 & 2, 2026 & June recap I’ve not been doing well and I’ve found it hard to remember to write. My period is late. I thought I was pmsing last week, I had mood swings and cravings and allowed myself to over eat, because I thought my period was coming. I was wrong. And I believe it will not be coming any time soon. When I started eating less (1300-1200 calories) I thought that was the ‘good’ amount and that I would be fine. I was wrong once more. I thought only women who do not eat for days at a time or only consume about 500 calories per day were the one’s who didn’t get periods. After doing research, I was wrong.  I may not have my period back for two more years. If I continue to eat the way I eat, which I do not plan on stopping. It could be much longer being that it sometimes takes 6 months for women to get their periods after going back to eating maintenance. I am really worried about this. Apparently it’s rare to cause permanent infertility, but I’m still wor...