July 22, 2026

 July 22, 2026

Today was better. The passed week I’ve been eating just under 1600 calories. It’s been working much better than 1200. Less binge urges and I feel better. I’m also still losing weight, just much slower. I do not mind. I want more instagram mutuals, twitter too. For tiktok I don’t mind because I have 8000 followers and nobody can see if the people I follow are mutuals or not. I feel like I only want them so other people will think I’m normal. For instagram only I have about 4 followers, all of them are one of my friends. I may convince my other friend to get instagram soon. I want to send him things on there. I need more friends in general, I get very lonely during the day. 

I am very tired

Good night.

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