July 11, 2026

 July 11, 2026

I’m getting used to my new schedule, but I’ve been eating maintenance calories. I’m trying not to and I just keep doing it. It’s better than binging, or overeating, but it’s not what I need to be doing. I need to start eating less again. I’m gonna try again tomorrow. Anyway. I bought two new doll kits, Bryson by Bountiful Baby, and June 7 Months awake by Bountiful Baby. I’m excited for both, but more so June. I’ve wanted a big baby for a while, and she’s huge. On the site it says she’s 25 inches, which is still very big, but everyone who’s reviewed her says she’s a bit bigger.

 I’m so excited to paint her and put her together. It was recommended to buy a 30 inch body for her, which is quite scary, but the lady showed what that looks like and it looks correct. With her limb lengths it sounds correct. She’s adorable. I’ve been trying to update my website, I’m making a section for my movies, shows, and book watch/read lists. I’m still on the first one, movies. I have a lot on my list. But it’s fun writing them down on a cute website and making everything pretty and pink.

 I’m linking the letterboxd page for each movie so once I finish the movie I can easily click the link and add it to my letterboxd. I’ll do the same for my books with goodreads. My shows will not need this because I have no site to log them, unless I find one. I’ve been playing Roblox a lot lately, Build A Zoo and Military Tycoon. I’m a little sleepy. I may add a section for fairytales, a lot of them are free online, I could just link them, It’d be easy for me to find and If anyone else on my website wants to read them, they can. I like doing things like this. I can’t decide if I want to work on my website or play Roblox.

I played roblox for a while. 

Good night.

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