June 29, 2026

 June 29, 2026

I don’t really remember yesterday, I feel bad for not writing. I’m only writing now because I’m scared and I don’t want to burden my friends with why. I don’t have much time left living with my father for free. He’s going to kick me out if I don’t get a job soon. He hasn’t said this, but I know it. I’m scared he’s going to kick me out even if I do get a job. I know he doesn’t want me here. I have no where else to go and I have no savings or family or friends who’d help me. I’m scared of talking to people or being around anyone I do not know, there are no jobs (that I’m qualified for) I could have. 

I binge ate.

Good night.

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