June 23, 2026

 June 23, 2026

Today was okay, I felt good until about an hour ago. I woke up at 10am to my dads truck pulling into the driveway, he had subway like he said he may. I was very happy about that, I’ve been really sick of eating at home. I ate my sub within an hour in hopes of fasting until tomorrow around 4. I realized around 9pm that I forgot to take my vitamins, which would break my fast. I could have just not taken them. But I decided to take them and eat some chips. I shouldn’t have done this and I feel bad about it. I’ve been doing so well with not eating late at night and only eating within certain time frames, then today I change that over vitamins that are not truly necessary.

It gets worse from that point. I scrolled on reddit for hours instead of doing anything productive, It was fun but it was also stupid and unnecessary. But I guess I got some reading in. My friend and I had plans to call and play games again today, I asked earlier if he still wanted to and he said yes, but it’s 2:30 am and he isn’t texting back so I don’t think that’s happening. One of my other friends has texted me maybe four times in the passed few days, and the other has ignored me most of today. I’m tired. 

I’m really upset that no one is talking to me right now, I should be able to be alone for extended periods of time without getting upset but it truly bothers me. I hate being alone. My friend called and things got better. 

Good night.

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