June 14, 2026

 June 14, 2026

I'm exhausted. I only slept maybe 6 hours. When I finally tried to sleep this morning my dad woke up and opened his door then went back to sleep, his snoring was so loud I had to get ear plugs. It's hard to sleep with ear plugs in. For me at least. I just ate lunch about an hour ago and I'm already thinking about a snack. I weighed myself this morning, the scale hadn't budged again. I'm gonna continue assuming it's water weight for my sanity. I know it's quite unlikely for me to be maintaining on 1200 calories at my weight, so it must be.

I think I've been eating a little over 1300 the past few days, I need to stop that. At my current weight my new suggested calories is 1,285. And I need to start counting my vitamin calories in my Daily calories. I need to buy new prenatal vitamins, the ones I bought like two years ago and never take expired in January. I need to actually take them this time. Along with my iron supplement. My diet is horrible. I think I may have arfid. I only like about ten different foods. And none of them are in any way healthy. This is why I have so many nutritional deficiencies. 

I believe my (iron deficiency) anemia is severe. I nearly faint every time I shower, my under eyes look horrible, I'm the color of a ghost, and I sometimes wake up with chest pains. I did this morning, which is why I started thinking about this. I also feel sick when I walk for too long. Or when I'm trying to clean my room, my chest starts to hurt and I have to lay down. This is why my room is always messy. I haven't fully cleaned it in maybe a year. There's trash everywhere, clothes all over the floor, I tried to clean it a few months ago, I did pretty well. But it's back the way it was now.

I'm always tired, I never feel like doing anything. I need to cut my nails, I hate when they get long because they bend. I finally got accepted into SpaceHey, I need to set up my profile. I cut and painted my nails and spent a few hours setting up my SpaceHey. It was fun! A bit stressful but it was worth it. I love the way it turned out. Shortly after I finished setting it up my friend and I called and played Roblox. We played multiple different games over about three hours. Then he looked at my website, my SpaceHey, my Pinterest, and my blog. 

He read my blog from yesterday. Afterwords we talked about it, then talked about many other things. I really enjoyed it. Anyway it’s really late and i need to sleep. Good night.

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